2:02 A.M.

cant sleep, at least there is a tv here so i have something to do. Sometimes i just have to stop reading for a while and do something that takes almost no brain power. Although you would be surprised about how much i have learned from television. I for some reason am able to recal even the most random and miniscual shows at the drop of a hat and coralate it with other prevelant shows comparing and contrasting. Perhaps i should work in television or movies, i would do well in either one. Most people i talk to about my insomnia brush it off and then talk about their own breif times. Most people like to sleep. I however do not. Sleeping is something that if i could i would give up entirely if i could. I sleep sometimes, but then i have nightmares, always nightmares. Never a good or pleasant dream. However thats almost better than not dreaming at all. Sometimes when i sleep i dont go into rem cycle so i dont even dream. I basicly close my eyes and open them without getting any rest. Did you know that after 18 hours of not sleeping you have a .08 intoxicated level. I can stay awake for 7 days, its longer than anyone ive ever met. Lots of people dont believe me when i talk about my sleeping disorders or blow it off like its not that big. However they are wrong, i would probable be completely different if i sleept better. I cant help it. Pretty sure if i took sleeping pills i would go crazy and start killing people. I wouldnt be able do disalusion my dreams from reality. Which is a problem. So i have decided to write a book about it you know it my spare time which just happens all the time. Anyway its cold in the room and everyone snores so why bother sleeping when i can just stay awake and do random things like always. Like my maze, pretty sure in zagreb if our hoste is not a crazy party place i will be doing some major mazing. Im so exited its almost done and it looks incredible.